When the work you do relies so much on you as a person and who you are, you have to cook for yourself before cooking for other people, as it were.
And if you’re talking about mindset and courageous work like I am, I cannot allow what I say outpace what I do. I’ve seen too many leaders, pastors, and parents do this and I refuse to repeat it.
I started going to therapy again. It’s six months of weekly conversations. Almost like a bootcamp where I’m recoding my brain. After our first conversation the therapist gave me four different paths we can go down. I chose the last two because they scare the shit out of me.
One was about identifying negative self patterns, negative cognition, reducing negative self talk. The other was about fatherhood, which goes into what does it mean to be a man, my sexuality, and basically all the things that I was never taught or felt ashamed by. So yeah. This all sounds hard and scary, but I know I’ll be eating well for the next six months.